I'm currently sat here, Wednesday afternoon (11.05.16), trying to think how to word this entire post and how exactly I start it off and this is the only way I can, pure honesty, straight from my head and heart. Some of you may question where I have been for the last several months and honestly, I kinda ask myself the same thing! It's like life is going past in a huge blur of hecticness and my blog is sat there waiting and waiting for some love and attention and I'm not giving as much as I could or should - so here is the low down.
After seven years with my previous partner I decided to end the relationship last year. We've had our differences, but I still have a lot of love and respect for him as he is the father of my two children. When you've been with someone from such a young age you can find yourself out growing that person, wanting different things... as sad as it is, it happens and whilst you grow and develop into adulthood you find you're not as compatible with certain people as you once thought you were. There's definitely more to the story, but I won't go into all that, ever! The children are both our priorities and co-parenting is working well for both of us, although they do live with me full-time.
Finding love again
If I'm honest, finding love again wasn't even top of the agenda. I wasn't interested in going out on the dating scene and would of happily spent the next 10 years single - but when does life ever work out the way you think it's going too? I fell in love with my best friend (as cheesy as that sounds), I really did. I'm currently engaged to someone I've known since I was 3, someone I shared my first kiss with at 5 and lost contact with for 16 years. Life is very unexpected.. let me tell you that. We have so much in common and yet are so different, but it works well and he's practically the male version of myself. We haven't took the big step of moving in with one another, yet, which is kinda weird considering we've taken a big step in committing to one another with a ring, but right now I'm not in a rush to move in with him.
I'm an at home carer, my sons on the autistic spectrum and relies on me a lot for his day to day basic needs. Being a parent takes up a lot of time, never mind having a child with special needs and it can be both hard work and challenging, but it's also the most rewarding and seeing him meet his targets makes me smile so much.
I recently started volunteering at a nursery and I love it. The interaction with the children and the social aspect of a job like that is both rewarding and fun. I'm hoping in the long run it could turn into a full-time job, but we will see.
Inbetween all the madness of all the above I'm revising for my theory and learning to drive, spending time with my children and taking them on days out, keeping the house afloat and doing so much mundane stuff it's unreal, which doesn't leave much time for blogging because I'm knackered by the end of the day, but don't worry, I'm still going to deliver posts, they just won't be a crazy amount just when I have time.
I hope you're all well and I'll see you all soon with an official blog post.
Mucho Love, xxx